I saw photos of a former schoolmate. She and her kids were in a hotel and were swimming in the hotel pool. They were all wearing bathing suits. I felt like buying boxes of slimming pills when I saw their pictures. I also want to go swimming wearing a bathing suit! And I don’t want to look like a whale while wearing one.

I’ve been telling myself to lose weight. Walk, exercise, stop eating like there’s no tomorrow. But the temptation around me, plus my weak determination… I don’t know if I can still wear a bathing suit. Probably when I am wrinkled and gray and no one will bother to look my way.